In the end, promises are meant to be broken

Have you ever went through a situation where someone has promised you something and then he/she/they break it? And your heart breaks. Breaking to pieces. And you know you are so sad. so sad until you don't know how to describe how sad you are. The saddest part is, you know that it hurts so much but then you have to pretend that you're okay and you're strong yet you still cry every night in your sleep. Sometimes, I have to kind of die inside in order to rise up from my ashes and believe in myself to become a new person. I'm too sad when I cried in my prayer asking Him to help me to throw the pain away so I can live and I wish that I don't know what pain is. Because the pain is killing me inside and I'm dying inside. I'm too disappointed, too sad, too fragile to handle the truth... I really don't know how to describe everything about it but this is what I feel when someone broke his/her/their promises they've made towards me. 

and I jumpa balik post lama I regarding this "kalau hati kita tak mampu nak bertahan, sedih kian merundum hati, pulang lah kita kepada yg Maha Pencipta. Dia yg mewujudkan perasaan dalam hati kita. Dia yg menentukan qada' dan qadar. mengadulah dekat Dia. He said 'Call upon Me and i'll respond to you' . minta kat Dia supaya dia dapat bagi kau kekuatan untuk hadapi semua ni" haa takkan tak cliche lagi? haha

p/s "The best part of moving on is you feel nothing at all. Nothing"

Well I'm looking forward to it

Clarity

Clarity is the title of a song by Zedd  ft foxes. I'm really into this song. and this is some of the lyrics that makes me love it :D

If our love is tragedy why are you my remedy

If our love's insanity why are you my clarity

Well obviously, I'm in love with the lyrics and its music arrangement hihi sedap lagu ni tapi best for me lah kan taktau lah bagi org lain haha and you'll never know unless you try right? :D

enjoy the song!

LOVE

I just had a thought and I really really felt like writing it down. I mean I don't know who might read this. But I thought would be nice to share my thoughts hihi

Love isn't about having the same hobbies/interests with the one that we love. 

It isn't about being someone else or liking his/her likes to impress 'em or to make sure he/she sees you. 

Love isn't about sex. 

Love isn't about being perfect in front of your partner. 

Love is about being yourself. 

Love is about respect. 

Love is when there is many expressions to express and emotions to emote. 

Eventually love will never has its own meaning. 

Love is Love.

So I was just thinking. The meaning of love comes from the state of someone's mind and how they think. It depends on their choice because they are their own individual and they actually can control how they feel by changing their thinking towards something.

Cinta/Perasaan ni bukan jenis yg kita boleh buat main. Bukan untuk suka suka bagi harapan kat org lain lepastu tinggalkan dia. Bukan jenis yg kita boleh buat acuh tak acuh kesah tak kesah *it's the same kan? haha but this is about my thoughts on love. What about yours?

p/s lawa tak aku buat post ni acach warna warni? kekononnya highlight point hahah

EVERYTHING WILL BE JUST FINE

I AM TRYING TO HOLD ON THESE WORDS. let see for how long. HEART, PLEASE BE STRONG. PLEASE STAY. PLEASE UNDERSTAND. PLEASE BE PATIENT. PLEASE DON'T JUMP INTO ANY CONCLUSION, ANY ASSUMPTION. I KNOW IT HURTS A LOT BUT HEART, PLEASE.... TAK LAMA. SEKEJAP JE. I PROMISE YOU HEART. BUT HEART, IF YOU CAN'T DO IT, LETS PRETEND THAT YOU CAN. WE HAVE NO CHOICE. WE HAVE TO LIVE OUR LIFE. LOVE AND BE LOVED.

100 days

January 10th 2013. genap 100 hari arwah fydo and shafiq pergi tinggalkan kita semua. dorang dah makin jauh dari kita semua dah. doa je yg mampu kitorang kirim untuk korang berdua. semoga tenang dan amanlah korang berdua di sana ameen.... al Fatihah. kitorang semua rindu sangat kat korang berdua :(

brother, i miss you.

lepas subuh pagi tadi tidur (contoh tak baik haha) then mimpi hang. hang pakai baju warna biru dengan cap hang tu. happy dapat jumpa hang. tak ingat kita borak apa then i went to the toilet. keluar dari toilet je tengok hang dah takda. tetiba dapat text dari hang 'jangan sedih farah bila aku takda, aku selalu ada dengan hang' then i cried lepastu terjaga. walaupun tu semua mimpi mainan tidur, kite gembira, dapat jumpa hang, tengok hang. miss you brother.. 

moga rohnya dicucuri rahmat dari Nya. ameen... Al-fatihah

I'M NOT LIKE YOU

the title says it all.